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     _{He steps back out of reflex, mentally cursing himself for doing so and he forces his body to stop. Swallowing thickly and blue eyes not leaving hers, his hand lowers, expression still holding a grimace to it. “My well being is in another’s hands now,”} 

                                     _{this was…} 

_{he really didn’t want to be alone with her. His heart was pounding in his chest
and the hand behind his back was trembling. It’d been years since he’d given
her up and since the day he’d finally decided to try and change his own fate in
the process. “…and I know. I know you went through Hell and back for me but I…”} 

_{The man bites his bottom lip, visible hand going into a fist and he tries to calm himself, to not allow the few words being said to him to break him, “I had to make a choice. It’s not that you are nothing, it’s just that-that I can’t do that anymore. I can’t take lives haphazardly.” He felt sick… He didn’t want to be around her like this, just…} 

_{“…I..I-It was… I had to. I needed to move on.
It wasn’t my intention t’ mock ya… but it had to be done.”} 

_{He couldn’t say he was sorry.
He was already struggling to keep his voice at the level
it was and to maintain his composure, so showing anymore
weakness was out of the question.}